What's upset you?

[fluffymoo]

I'm in a similar boat at the moment. I'm on my second week of anti-depressants, so far it hasn't been too bad. But then last night it felt like everything kind of just drained away, there was no point to anything anymore. So on the bus on my way home I planned my way out, I figured I could quite easily OD on something because I'd be home alone. It's weird, it's the first time I didn't really think about anyone elses' feelings - if anything I thought my family would be better off without me. I almost felt relieved to have come to the decision that I was done with this life.

Once I got into town I kind of went into auto-pilot mode and went into Waitrose instead to get some chocolate pudding. I'm kind of angry that I didn't go through with it, surprised almost that I just didn't go for it. It seems so simple, a hell of a lot easier than living the way I am atm.

Sorry about the rant, I debated long and hard with myself about posting this, but it was something I had to get off my chest.

[Katesyl]

Noo it's so important you tell people when you're feeling like this. Even just so they can keep an eye on you till you feel better (which I'm sure you will). I think the scary thing is the sense that your thoughts and feelings are a bit out of your own control and that's why it's good to have someone if just to physically stop you doing anything while you're in that mindset.

[Fjar]

It feels weird saying it because I hope you know already, but just in case it needs saying again, I am here for you. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to phone me or get me on FB.

[Killing_time]

I'm in a similar boat at the moment. I'm on my second week of anti-depressants, so far it hasn't been too bad. But then last night it felt like everything kind of just drained away, there was no point to anything anymore. So on the bus on my way home I planned my way out, I figured I could quite easily OD on something because I'd be home alone. It's weird, it's the first time I didn't really think about anyone elses' feelings - if anything I thought my family would be better off without me. I almost felt relieved to have come to the decision that I was done with this life.

Once I got into town I kind of went into auto-pilot mode and went into Waitrose instead to get some chocolate pudding. I'm kind of angry that I didn't go through with it, surprised almost that I just didn't go for it. It seems so simple, a hell of a lot easier than living the way I am atm.

Sorry about the rant, I debated long and hard with myself about posting this, but it was something I had to get off my chest.

2 weeks on anti depressants won't be doing anything as of yet you really have to ride it through till at least 3 months and be sure to take your medication on a regular time pattern each day! The best thing to do with mental health problems like depression and anxiety is to stop thinking about other people and go all out on self indulging in things that you enjoy doing.

A good thing to do is to write down a list of things you enjoy doing and try and tick off at least one thing each day that you've done. When you're suffering from mental health problems it's easy to get distracted and you will have stopped or forgotten all about what makes you happy so making the list and forcing yourself to do these activities is important.

[fluffymoo]

Thanks for the replies, I'm doing a little bit better today.

It feels weird saying it because I hope you know already, but just in case it needs saying again, I am here for you. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to phone me or get me on FB.

Thank you, that means a lot x

[ScrumpiesVeteran]

Thanks for the replies, I'm doing a little bit better today.

Glad to hear it ! Remember that there are a hell of a lot of us on this forum who have been through similar to yourself. Vent on here whenever you need. You know that we are there for you !

See you at Damnation

[tranmerefan]

It feels weird saying it because I hope you know already, but just in case it needs saying again, I am here for you. If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to phone me or get me on FB.

Same as this.

You know where to find me if you want to talk

[AlixB]

Found out Wednesday evening that a friend of mine passed away some time early that morning. Still waiting to hear what the coroner says but so far it looks like he had a heart attack. One of his favourite things to do in life was offend people, so someone was kind enough to create a tribute page so that we could be successfully updated on funeral arrangements etc. without his facebook account getting deactivated for offending someone (which happened ALL the time). Looks like I'll be planning a trip to Sydney soon

[herzeleid]

I'm in a similar boat at the moment. I'm on my second week of anti-depressants, so far it hasn't been too bad. But then last night it felt like everything kind of just drained away, there was no point to anything anymore. So on the bus on my way home I planned my way out, I figured I could quite easily OD on something because I'd be home alone. It's weird, it's the first time I didn't really think about anyone elses' feelings - if anything I thought my family would be better off without me. I almost felt relieved to have come to the decision that I was done with this life.

Once I got into town I kind of went into auto-pilot mode and went into Waitrose instead to get some chocolate pudding. I'm kind of angry that I didn't go through with it, surprised almost that I just didn't go for it. It seems so simple, a hell of a lot easier than living the way I am atm.

Sorry about the rant, I debated long and hard with myself about posting this, but it was something I had to get off my chest.

Eesh, that sounds rough. I have been on various ones for about two years now, and while I can't say I have felt that bad on any initially, I know plenty who have. It does get better after the initial lows though! After a few months you will be very glad you stuck with them. If it keeps happening I would suggest perhaps going back to the Doctor, that is the advice for such feelings even in the initial stage. But I was told that the more extreme lows you get to begin with can actually be a sign that they will work better once they are fully in your system.

Like everyone else said, just try and focus on doing things you like to do, it as all things will pass. They changed me from someone who could barely leave the house at times into someone with a job and everything!

[fluffymoo]

Thanks for the reply, Sam x

Another crappy post incoming.

My brother was drugged and mugged last night at a night club. Apparently they found meth amphetamines in his system when he was tested at the hospital. This, and my sister with Crohn's has gotten worse again - she'll have to go onto a liquid diet for 3-6 weeks to see if she'll improve.

[peypea]

Jesus christ, Andreas? That's beyond horrendous. I hope he isn't too messed up. And that's really shit about Malin, I remember how much she hated it before. I'm sending all my love and best wishes to your family Moo <3

[JamieH]

sending all the love to the Swes <3

[Kanwulf]

Very trivial compared to other posts in here.

Today I learned just how alienated I feel at work. I'm the only male there and there are two girls my age but otherwise the rest are at a minimum 10 years older.... Some as much as 50 years older than myself.

Anyway, all they ever do is talk about their families and general woman stuff whilst I sit there in silence not really knowing what to say nor caring for the particular topic at hand. Sometimes I will try and make conversation (albeit rarely) and its usually just fobbed off, or some louder person will speak up on something else and they flock to converse with her instead.

I'm not entirely sure if this is the right thread per se because none of them are really my kind of person but it really would be nice to sit and be able to join in the conversations sometimes. And at least feel noticed ha.

[Fjar]

Ask them questions about themselves, if you have absolutely nothing in common with them. People love to talk about themselves, and it gets you involved in their conversations.

Ask the ones who are much older than you about their lives. They've probably got a ton of stories, and they'll appreciate being asked.

[Kanwulf]

Ask them questions about themselves, if you have absolutely nothing in common with them. People love to talk about themselves, and it gets you involved in their conversations.

Ask the ones who are much older than you about their lives. They've probably got a ton of stories, and they'll appreciate being asked.

I never really get the chance because there is always some sort of conversation going on about some shitty TV show they watched last night (I don't watch TV) or their diets (I am scrawny as fuck so no need to diet lol). On the plus side though, it will hopefully be the thing that will spur me on to FINALLY look for employment elsewhere