IronEagle wrote:following qoute is from the camping at BSOA thread...
Viking wrote::P:P:P:P
ive bearly posted in days, how is this spam, thought itd be cool bringing munitions to the fest
lol
right the qoute and he who wrote it are nothing to do with the ollowing huge rant...
saw a members poat on the free for all before it got deleted... ive noticed less spam since ive gone too, ive also noticed a lot less chat among ppl latley... ppl are the first to complain when someone posts too much even if its harmless and keeps a board at least a lil alive durin the winter months, but they are also the first to complain when noone is posting and it gets a lil dull... strange stuff
im not postin much at the mo coz of my novel, its comming along nicly for the first time in 2 years, for once my writers block is dying, strange as you begin to feel worse and worse, your creativity gets better and better, god knows
point being, i love posting on here, no matter how much hostility i get for it, sure i shouldnt take it personal, and im sure ill end up apologising on here in the near future for this, but right now im finding it increasingly hard to keep my calm throught the mundane nag of daily existance dragging me down and just beating me over and over again... so in advance i apologise if i seem a lil harsh and im taking things to personal, even the jokey things dont seem to make me laugh anymore, i am sorry for this in advance. Point : I love bein part of this community and i dont give anyone any shit who dont give it to me, as far as im aware, i never gave anyone any reason to have a dig, and for some strange reason some ppl fnd it their mission to make my presence here their personal barrage of insult, and took an instant disliking to me, simply over text. I keep goin off on fuckin tangents, sorry see what i mean bout the creativness???
but yeah BACK TO THE POINT is bad enough gettin insulted when im here by some ppl, but when i saw ???'s (not naming any names here) picture, before the mods where kind enough to delete it (thanks) i was at th bottom of a barrel, and bein made to feel like not only did ppl not want me to post, they liked the fact that i wasnt, that hurt, a jokes a joke, but that was done deliberatly behind my back, for the true reason that i know that ??? really fuckin has sumthin against me, i just wish i knew what, i hope one day you understand what its like to feel unwanted at the only thing thats keepin you goin durin the worst time of your life... jeezus im moaning so much tonight lol... as i said, im prolly over reacting sorry in advance...
this is a message to the entire community disregarding certain ???'s : Thanks, you and this fest are the only thing i have to look forward to, you lot kept me goin throughout the worst patch, looks like that is commin to an end soon, and i truly mean it when i say, if it werent for some of ya, id have never seen the year through... fuck sounds dramatic, no not talkin bout killing myself, more about stayin on the anti drugs wagon, there where times that a just a lil hit would be my answer, i dont wanna wrck my life again, not that it could get much worse... i dont wanna go there again, it was so hard to quit last time, not sure i could do it again... Thanks for keepin me on that road... and please if your gonna insult me when im not around, PM me!
ok rant over ill breath and leave it there before my tangent spinning ways haunt me summore lol...