clare-l wrote:there's insecure and there's totally irrational. in all honesty if you keep up that frantic attitude it's not fair on this girl you've only had one date with. you haven't once considered her feelings in this, that she (i'm assuming she's a rational human being) might be incredibly uncomfortable with your thought process of 'i am 20 and must marry this girl'.
That wasn't really the thought process. The thought process was more like, fuck, I haven't really been with anyone who was special to me and I'm a bit awkward around girls. I better pull up my socks in the next ten years or things might end up a bit shit. I'm nowhere near as bothered about this specific girl as has come across. I am seeing her tonight though
. I'm also not thinking I need to get married now, I don't want to, but I think I probably should aim to at some point before my late 30s, if I plan on marrying a woman of the same age or older (I don't like much younger women).